李恩惠---《这是耶和华所定的日子》-----给神的音乐盒，诗歌见证分享会

因着上帝的慈爱，我们在无助的时候，只要向祂祈求，祂必帮助我们，赐给我们力量及勇气。

      I’m thankful today to be here to share a meaningful song and a testimony with all of you. When, Hie Kwang told me that someone from each cell groups has to give a testimony, I was reluctant to volunteer, because I am scared to stand in front, but here I am standing here, because God is good, His grace and love are abundant, His faithfulness is great that we just have to testify Him. Today, I would like to share my experience of God’s comfort through a song.

       Before coming here to pursue my study, during the period of time when I have graduated from Form 6, while waiting for university intake, I worked part time as a teacher. That was when I discovered that I really have no talent in handling children. I was very stressed up because I could not do my job well as a teacher. Very often, I lost control of my class, I couldn’t get them to pay attention, what’s more teaching them. Because of my hot temper, and out of frustration, I often lashed out at them. I was also pressured by my boss and also the parents who have high demand in the children’s study performances. All of them wanted the children to excel in their learning. All these have caused me to be stressful, and some unsatisfied parents would complain and said some harsh words, I felt hurtful. I’m a perfectionist, and so I took all these really personal and blamed myself for all my students’ poor performance in their learning. I felt that I was taking my salary every month without helping the children. I felt that I was ruining their best time to develop their interest in learning, that I could jeopardize their future.

         I dreaded to live each day, and I could not rest at night. Until today, it was still the most stressful period for me this far. I am really bad with children, and I did not build my faith in the Lord, for I did not trust in His deliverance at difficult times. I failed to place myself into His hands: the things I cannot do, the times that troubled me, the way that I should go or the person that He would want me to be. In my little faith, I failed more than my worst student. I was crushed like anything, I bottled up a lot of stress, dreadfulness, fear, insecurities, and guilt until one day, when I was preparing my teaching material, I got so discouraged that I broke down.

           So my mother came to comfort me, she tried to help my to see a bigger, and a brighter picture of what I was going through, trying to make me feel better. Then, she prayed for me. After prayer, it was time to go to work but I was tired, all drained out. But as I was leaving my house, a song started to play in my heart. ‘This is the day, this is the day that the Lord has made, that the Lord has made, I will rejoice, I will rejoice and be glad in it…’So I felt comforted by the song. The song sounded familiar to me but I could not recognise it, it took me some time to recall that I once learn this song in children Sunday school many years ago, and it has long been forgotten until that day, that song came into my heart again.

             Ya, God make a beautiful day, God gives us lives, and every day is given by God, because God is love. The song has helped me to go through my day, God has helped me to live my day. Though now, thinking back, I actually put myself in great suffering over small thing. But I chose to share with you because the song is meaningful. It reminds me of the Lord’s goodness, at all time.

Here I would like to read for you some verses that always remind me of the Lord’s faithfulness and love:

Genesis 8:21-22

The Lord smelled the pleasing aroma and said in His heart. “Never again will I curse ground because of men, even though every inclination of his heart is evil from childhood. And never again will I destroy all living creatures as I have done. As long as the earth endures, seedtime and harvest, cold and heat, summer and winter, day and night will never cease.”

Lamentations 3:22-23

Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for His compassions fail not. They are new every morning, great is Thy faithfulness.

This is the day that the Lord has made, let us rejoice and be glad in it. So let us all rise and praise the Lord!