《我•寻找》生活营——分享篇 (Part 3)

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路11:9-10

 我又告诉你们、你们祈求就给你们。寻找就寻见。叩门就给你们开门。

因为凡祈求的就得着、寻找的就寻见。叩门的就给他开门。

For everyone who asks receives. He who seeks finds. To him who knocks it will be opened. I tell you, keep asking, and it will be given you. Keep seeking, and you will find. Keep knocking, and it will be opened to you.

这节经文完全符合我在这次生活营的得着。在还没出发之前，我接到要带营会的其中一场敬拜赞美的任务，刚好那时候都在忙着课业上的事情还有很多活动。因为有许多事情导致我在准备的过程中就有许多的不确定和压力，毕竟我是第一次在在不是从小就熟悉的教会中带领敬拜赞美。很感恩的是上帝都一路的带领，还有许多弟兄姐妹的扶持让我能够完成这个我以为不可能的任务。

常常在服侍上帝的时候都有一种我不配的感觉。一直觉得自己不配得献上，因为应当把最好的无残缺的献给神。但是透过营会，给了我一个自我省察的机会。重新认识自己对每一个事情的态度和眼光，还有学习用上帝的眼光来看这个世界。这个功课虽然有点难度，而且当我们离开营地回到自己各自的生活圈时，就唯有靠着上帝的能力才能使我们更能活着有基督的样式。看到主背着十架这么艰辛的任务都完成了，我还有什么借口给自己不背上自己的轭呢？依靠满有能力的主，我们还惧怕什么呢？愿上帝继续保守我们每一个人前面的道路，继续保持营会里那火热的心和渴慕主话语的灵。阿们！

孙瑞虹    笔

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           在《我•寻找》这个生活营，让我印象深刻的是有关简朴生活的那一个工作坊。 我反思了什么是我手紧抓住的而让这些事物超越了我和上帝的关系。我记得其中一张所采用的图是亚伯拉罕眼里含着泪将以撒献上, 顿时有个想法飘过我的思绪，其实上帝并没有说我们不可以哭着将所爱的事物献上给祂, 造我们的祂岂会不了解我们内心的感受，祂要的只是超越内心喜欢的一颗愿意顺服的心。

在十架苦路的过程中，当我回想耶稣在客西马尼园等候过后要迎来的事情时，祂经历了面对眼前看不见的心里的挣扎和无奈。 耶稣今天能明白能安慰每一位正处在等候的我们，因祂在客西马尼园经历了这一切。 在信心之旅的这个环节, 我的眼睛被蒙上但有人牵着我的手走，对我说不要放弃时我想起了当耶稣在走十架这条路的时候并没有人对祂说不要放弃, 而因着祂走完了这条苦路今天当我们想要放弃时可以思想耶稣为我们走完了这条艰难令人无数次想放弃的路，但祂为了我们的缘故祂走完了, 因祂走完了这条路，今天祂可以牵引我们走前面的每一步。

Jacqueline    笔

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First of all, I want to thank God for two things:

-          For giving PMVCF committees the idea to hold a camp.

-          For giving the Parit Buntar (USM Eng. Campus) Varsity Fellowship the idea to organize a combined camp with PMVCF. 

It was a wonderful opportunity and we had a great time of fellowship with them.

Going for camps is one of my favourite things to do. Usually in camps organised by CFs or churches, I will learn new things and feel 'energised'. But somehow, this camp has a different impact on me this time round.

One session that most participants shared as their most memorable part in this camp is the Way of the Cross session, held at the last night of the camp. There were 6 stations and the part that impacted me most was the part where we 'experienced' the nailing of Jesus on the cross. The video clips (depicting Jesus' way to the cross, paired with songs) shown afterwards helped to complement my 'experience' too. I realised that Jesus had to go through all of these because of my sins. Every whip, every drop of blood, the piercing of His hands and legs, was because of me. If that is so, am I still willing to sin? Am I still willing to go against His will? A good reminder for me when I face temptation.

Well, upon knowing that the focus of this camp will be on the topic of postmodernity, I have prepared myself to discover more about it in the camp. Pastor Yew Kuan Yee (邱君尔传道), our camp speaker, is in my opinion, quite knowledgeable and able to engage well with listeners of our age. Through the three sessions that we have with him, I have come to know post-modernity as a follow-up to the modern era, and not a distinct era itself, at least in the non-Western context. 

I have gained quite a number of insights from his sharing, but the one thing that spoke to me most is this: Times will change, but God never changes. God is faithful and He never changes (Psalm 102:25-27, Malachi 3:6, Hebrews 13:8). His Truth is everlasting. (Mark 13:31, Psalm 117:2, Isaiah 40:8). For us, the postmodern people, we rely greatly on ‘how we feel’ and we only do things when we ‘feel like doing it’. Yes, the church has to adapt to the changing times to cater to a newer and different generation, but the Truth cannot be compromised as a result. The Truth may be presented in different forms and ways, but the Truth itself should never change. (As the speaker said, “Different container, same content.”)

The challenge from ages past remains the same today, that is, to bring the constant, eternal Truth into the lives of people with shifting hearts and minds. Well, that is the Holy Spirit’s job, and I can only pray that God will use me according to His ways to accomplish this.

Times change, God never.

“I · Searching”. From this camp, I have not only found out what to have in my life, but also what to search for in my life. – God’s will for me. I pray that we will continue searching for this in our lives.

          “I am ready to search!” (Participants’ Name Tag, “I · Searching” Camp)

by Hendrix